Thursday, March 20, 2008

Migraines...

What Triggers a Migraine?
Many migraines seem to be triggered by external factors. Possible triggers include:

Emotional stress. This is one of the most common triggers of migraine headache. Migraine sufferers are generally highly affected by stressful events. During stressful events, certain chemicals in the brain are released to combat the situation (known as the "flight or fight" response). The release of these chemicals can provoke vascular changes that can cause a migraine. Repressed emotions surrounding stress, such as anxiety, worry, excitement, and fatigue can increase muscle tension and dilated blood vessels can intensify the severity of the migraine. Had this only a few hours before my first major migraine in January...I was dropping Chris off at the airport for his flight back to Iraq and I was overcome with emotion. This also happened just before my migraine the other day - I had a crazy onset of severe depression (out of no where).

Migraines and Co-Existing Conditions
There are some medical conditions that are more commonly associated with migraines, including:

-Asthma
-Chronic fatigue syndrome
-Hypertension
-Raynaud's phenomenon (occurs when blood vessels narrow causing pain and discoloration usually in the fingers)
-Stroke Um, HI, this is scary...Mom had migraines AND had a stroke
-Sleep Disorders

Are Migraines Hereditary?
Yes, migraines have a tendency to run in families. Four out of 5 migraine sufferers have a family history of migraines. If one parent has a history of migraines, the child has a 50% chance of developing migraines, and if both parents have a history of migraines, the risk jumps to 75%. Mom...

What Are the Symptoms of Migraines?
The symptoms of migraine headaches can occur in various combinations and include:
A pounding or throbbing headache that often begins as a dull ache and develops into throbbing pain. The pain is usually aggravated by physical activity. The pain can shift from one side of the head to the other, or it can affect the front of the head or feel like it's affecting the whole head.

-Sensitivity to light, noise, and odors
-Nausea and vomiting, stomach upset, abdominal pain
-Loss of appetite Yup
-Sensations of being very warm or cold Yup
-Paleness
-Fatigue Yup
-Dizziness Yup
-Blurred vision Yup
-Diarrhea
-Fever (rare)

Symptoms that signal the onset of a migraine are used to describe two types of migraine.

-Migraine with aura (known as "classic" migraine)
-Migraine without aura (known as "common" migraine)

An "aura" is a physiological warning sign that a migraine is about to begin. Migraines with auras occur in about 20%-30% of migraine sufferers. An aura can occur one hour before the attack of pain and last from 15 to 60 minutes. The symptoms always last less than one hour. Visual auras include:

-Bright flashing dots or lights
-Blind spots
-Distorted vision
-Temporary vision loss
-Wavy or jagged lines
...ALL OF THESE!!!!!!!!!!

Migraines without auras are more common, occurring in 80%-85% of migraine sufferers. Several hours before the onset of the headache, the person can experience vague symptoms, including:

-Anxiety
-Depression OH YEAH
-Fatigue or tiredness

Preventive (prophylactic) medications
When the headaches are severe, occur more than two or three times a month and are significantly interfering with normal activities, your doctor may prescribe preventive medication. Preventive medications reduce the frequency and severity of the headaches and are generally taken on a regular, daily basis. Might be a good idea to look into this...

Biofeedback

Biofeedback helps people learn to recognize stressful situations that trigger migraines. If the migraine begins slowly, many people can use biofeedback to stop the attack before it becomes full blown. Man if this WORKED!

Information provided thanks to http://women.webmd.com/guide/migraines-headaches-migraines

Wednesday, March 19, 2008

Not for any particular reason other than so I don't forget...

Girl's names:
Brooklyn Jeanne -mother's initials, middle name
Mabry Kathryn -just love it!
Ailey or Eiley

Boy's names:
Christian Perry -greatness ;-)
Mason James -father's first name
Riley Sansone -grandma Engler's maiden name
Sebastian Burke -grandma Masterson's maiden name

Thursday, March 13, 2008

I really miss having a mom...

Looking at my boyfrieds' Facebook photos from his latest trip home for Army R&R...pictures of his sister and his mom; they are so sweet together.

I know that I'm going to miss out on a lot of mother-daughter things. Sometimes it just doesn't hit me I guess, or I try to block it out so it doesn't have to hurt. I just wish we could've spent time together, that she could've gotten to know me as an adult. I mean, I was 20 when she died so I wasn't a child or anything, but I've matured so much over the past 4 years. I want to share my life with her. I want her to see how far I've come and how much I've accomplished - and all on my own! I want to introduce her to the love of my life, the man I'm going to marry, to his wonderful family, and to the future I want to have with him.

I wanted us to have our girl-talks and girl-time, where we could talk like friends instead of as parent and child.

I find myself staring at the photos of Chris' sister and mother together...longing for that to be my mom and I, longing for that closeness between mother and daughter to be mine.

I don't think I'll ever "get a grip" on this in my life. And I don't think anyone would blame me either.


P.S. On an un-related sidenote, I want to update from my last posting...Chris is perfectly fine, he wasn't one of the now 8 or 10 soldiers who were killed at the beginning of the week in Baghdad. However, I continue to pray for the souls of those that were taken, as well as their families. God Bless!

Monday, March 10, 2008

I'm going crazy...

Suicide bomber kills five Coalition force soldiers
BAGHDAD, Iraq –- Four Multi-National Division Baghdad soldiers were killed and one later died of wounds when a suicide bomber detonated among them while they patrolled in central Baghdad today. Three U.S. soldiers and an Iraqi interpreter were injured in the blast, which occurred at approximately 3 p.m.


I can't help but be plagued by terrible thoughts. Is he alive? Was he patrolling today? The last time we spoke it was 6 a.m. his time, midnight my time. My heart has been racing every since I saw the headlines this morning. I guess an army spouse's/significant other's heart never ceases to pound when anything is mentioned regarding the death of U.S. Soldiers. I keep trying to convince myself that God wouldn't do this to me, that he wouldn't take my love away from me when I've already lost so much in my life... but then again, God does things not to hurt us but to teach us a lesson. When it seems we can't take any more or we ought not suffer any longer he tests us again. Why He does this we won't know until we reach Heaven's gates...

But still, Lord, I pray that You keep him safe. Please, please, please keep my Christian safe and alive, don't take him just yet from this world.

I hope and pray that I will come back to read this post in a few hours with a sense of relief in my heart.

Thursday, February 21, 2008

I hate you, MS

Sometimes I get really freakin' annoyed at my dad's MS.

I'm so frustrated. All he does is text-message me things and when I reply, with or without a question, he NEVER responds. I can't believe that his memory lapses are THAT immediate. And I don't think responding to your daughter's text messages is rhetorical. Give me a freakin' break. And when I do ask an important question, and do not get a response, I call him and get a "Hey! What's up?" kind of remark when he answers - like he has NO IDEA why I am calling. Ugh. I can't stand it!!!

I need some serious stress-relief right now.

Tuesday, February 19, 2008

LIFE: It doesn't get any easier

I'm not trying to sound cynical, but I really need to stop falling back on the thinking that life gets easier: It doesn't, and that's just how it is.

I don't want that to come off as a cynical statement, but it's really just the reality of things. Saying life is easy is would just simply be untrue. Ask anyone, rich or poor, and they will certainly agree. I don't know, maybe I am just hopeful sometimes that maybe life will give me a break - throw me a bone or something! But no, because even the seemingly wonderful and simple things in life are bound to have some strays here and there.

I guess I just wish there were easier ways of handling things - and if not easier, just less stresful ways. Every little set back seems to just drive me completely bananas. I guess it's a double-edged sword though...if life were simple, I'd probably be way bored -- and with it being busy and stressful, at least there's never a dull moment, right?

Wishing Chris was here...life seems to slow down steadily a bit when he's here. It's less that he makes stressful things actually disappear, and more that he sets me at ease so that I can get things accomplished. Having him in my presence makes everything seem more attainable.

Thursday, February 14, 2008

Happy Valentine's Day!


I am missing my love so much right now :-( but I am so thankful for the tears I cry for missing him, because it further reminds me of how lucky I am to have found the most wonderful man in the world (and that TRUE LOVE is possible).

Chris, I love you with all of my heart and hope you know what a joy you have brought to my life. I could not ask for a better Valentine - no material thing on this day can compare to the love endless I feel for you. You are the best kind of ouch! Forever and a day, baby!